What the?

Waiting. Waiting. Waiting. That is what making a baby is all about in this land.

Today is day 15. Normally, I would have a surge by now. I don't. Nothing. What the hell? This is a little crazy making. Wasn't Clomid supposed to help with this?

We do send our best to Mommies in the Making with their one-hit-wonder status. Tons of positive vibes sent their way. Congrats!

On to the good news....tomorrow is the last day of school. THANK GOODNESS! The children will all leave....and mostly importantly...the teachers will all leave. The interruptions to my work will go from 30-40 per day to about 4. It rocks. I love working with kids and teachers, but summer is there for a reason....and I plan to enjoy it.

E-

something wicked this way comes

E has taken her last dose of Clomid. It is an interesting drug. When I least expect it, E is ripping her clothes off due to hot flashes. She woke up this morning and said that she felt like she had ovulation pain all night long and she started spotting, so we called the doctor. He asked us to come in for an ultrasound to see if her ovary had been overstimulated and grew too large. The ultrasound showed that everything was fine. It was actually kind of fun (for me since I was not being tested...hehe). They measured E's ovaries and all the follicles. They told us how big the follicles should be before insemination and how many there should be. Surprisingly, her lazy left ovary had two of the best follicles...at least at this point.

The nurse recommended that E take some ibuprofen for the pain for the next day or so. In her words, "Clomid is a wicked drug." We're very happy, though, that everything is working and this month may be our best shot yet.

m

New plan

We went to the downtown clinic. It was easier this time because we knew what to expect. We had very, very low expectations. It was very busy and full of teenage moms.

We met the new doctor, Dr. F. He was good. We told him our whole story and he agreed that we should keep trying without having the HSG test for a month or two. He was concerned about my late ovulation. I had to accept that I do not have a regular period. I am not perfect...what is up with that??

So, the decision was this: Clomid. Yup. Like the rest of the world, it is time for Clomid. It is a drug that you take for about 5 days and basically it helps stimulate the ovary to make better eggs and release them earlier. I started taking it today and I am interested to see when I actually ovulate this time.

Next step: order more swimmers. I will tackle that tomorrow.

E-

family welcome here

Aunt Flo came for a visit. Off to a new doctor tomorrow. We called the cryobank and found out there are still some vials left for our guy. That's some good news!

So, last month when it didn't work, E got a new vacuum cleaner. She emailed me today and told me she would like a patio set this time. Now, you might be thinking that we're ridiculous, but this is all stuff we knew we needed and have been saving for so it's a fun way to soften the blow of not being pregnant and get the things we would have gotten anyway. But please don't tell E. She thinks they are special presents she's getting. ;)

m

no surprises here

The question has been asked if we are peeing on sticks. Normally, 13DPO I would have peed on 12 sticks by now. However, the grand total this month is zero...zip...none. We should be starting our third cycle any minute now.

Instead of sitting around wondering and going crazy like last month, this month we are planting new flower beds, putting in a garden, and riding our bikes. We are sore and tired but having a great time.

Soon it will be time for the new donor search and the next round.

E-

she's really swell, too

E said I should write nice stuff about her...

I can't believe we are here, either. As E said, we have been friends for years, and I think we were both a little surprised that we jumped out of that tree. We have a great time together. She makes me laugh like crazy, and let's me see a side of her that almost no one else sees. She is damn smart, too. But, big ditto....she can drive me absolutely nuts--pull out the bottle of whiskey crazy. I wouldn't say she's bossy, but just check out the first line.

And yet, we are here. Having a great time, doing our best to be patient and have fun while we try to make a baby.

Oh, and another friend of ours is pregnant....they're everywhere!!! :)

m

I am not even counting

Since I feel totally normal I am not even counting the days during the TWW. I think we are around day 10 DPO or something like that. Every once in awhile I have a passing hope/thought that...well...maybe I am and I just feel great and this will be a cake walk, but then I remember the very clear symptoms I felt last month and know that nothing is happening here.

We have tried to look for a new donor (our 1st one is out), but I just haven't gotten my head in the right place yet. I am sure it will happen, but it just hasn't yet.

We are heading into the final weeks of school. That brings this great mix of excitement and stress. School really ends. There are no more extensions. Tests must be graded, evaluations completed, portfolios created, IEPs turned in, data collected, classrooms/offices cleaned, and old Tupperware finally brought home. We are both cramming to get everything done before the final days.

M and I recently marked our 1st official year of living together. We have been great friends for almost four years and we dated for a year before we moved in together. We had a perfect move in day. We have the best house. And, at times I am still amazed we ended up here together. I love her more today than I did any day before and I am constantly amazed by that fact. Now, she can make me totally freaking nuts and can drive me to drink, but overall (98% of the time) she just rocks.

E-